One of my best friends is a fellow BLM. She lost her first child at 16 weeks. A boy named Alexander. She miscarried after that. A blighted ovum. She gave birth prematurely to a beautiful little boy, Christopher, in December 2009. Unfortunately, he was born with a lot of problems. He died in February 2010.
Now, after months of trying, she found out she was pregnant this February. Given her history, she was seeing the doctors almost every week since and had multiple ultrasounds. Last week, they saw a heartbeat! She was elated. But the heartbeat wasn't as strong as it should have been so they wanted to see her again this week. Today, she got the worst news ever. There's no heartbeat. The baby's gone.
It makes me so mad. She's a beautiful person who'd be a fabulous mother. I just don't understand why this would keep happening. What makes her unworthy?
I'm so upset. I'm hoping Lily's giving big hugs to Christopher tonight.
Dear Rebecca,
ReplyDeleteI have been meaning to follow your blog as soon as I got your message. I'm so glad that you are writing and finding ways to remember Lily that makes you feel and find peace. I'm so sorry about your friend. The world just doesn't make sense sometimes. Just wishing for better things to happen soon. ((hugs))